January 14

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It's your birthday tomorrow, January 14... Once more you'll be somewhere between classes with the people who like you and probably have dinner in your grandparents house near the beach. Send your grandmother a kiss from me, I always liked her even though I never got to meet her. You'll certainly stay out with them this weekend. Will you spend the night with her? Will you kiss her in public? God, I'm stuck between asking the questions and being scared of the answers. For a year, we haven´t said a word to each other and I wonder, is it only out of pride or are you mad at me? I'm scared of saying anything on your birthday but I couldn't say nothing at all and be silent, so I will. You'll never read any of the letters I wrote you, unless anything falls upon me, because as far as you and everyone knows they don't exist. Same for all the moons who heard me scream for your name, for the love I can't tell the world about or all the birthdays and New Year wishes when I wished you would love me. Back then, I said I loved you unconditionally and I didn't lie, I did and do love you. 

00h00. 
Happy Birthday Love, are you in your bed with her in the other end of the line?

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